You Outta Know

This post definitely isn't an Alanis Morissette song.

You outta know, all my unsubscribed readers, that I've been away. Duh.

I needed some time off.

Without my big vacation getaway, aka Burning Man aka most people's worst nightmare, I was left wonton for some time off work. Time off from working out and watching what I eat all the time and some time on with people I usually only see at the burn.

I also feel it's only fair that I share with you that My Special Man Friend ("MSMF") and I went our separate ways prior to my absence.

Shit happens. Sometimes love isn't enough but we loved deeply regardless. Sometimes something is so good in half of your life but completely devoid and inept in the other half. That's how it was for us; perfectly brilliant at home in our downtime but on completely different pages socially. The dichotomy was boggling and eventually created a sink hole.

As I told him, I'll tell you. I'm so utterly grateful and thankful for the time we spent together. He was my first subscribed reader lol!  I thoroughly enjoyed our time together, much of it filled with laughter. He is a wonderful guy that made me feel so loved and special. I'm in the unique position of being happy of our time together, rather than feeling used, embittered, and hurt. I never was one of those people that would write a social media "thank you Dear John letter" for everyone to read, to show how brave and bold and spiritually woke I was to dealing with life's disappointments and bullshit, but here I am. No one was wrong. No one did anything reprehensible. 

MSMF was a constant source of entertaining posts so I don't know what the hell I'm going to do now. 

I'll probably need to regale you with boring stories of my own stupidity or the idiocracy of good friends and family as I've done on occasion. Ya'll are just going to have to bare with me.

And while another man friend may come into my life he won't be MSMF. He'll be known to you all as someone else but he won't be My Special Man Friend. He gets to reserve that special title and I am forever appreciative for the time he spent with me and for inspiring this silly blog that I oddly care so much about.

Thank you.